Dear relationship experts.
Despite of calling attention from men when I walk on the streets, I 'm afraid when I go out at night (at pubs, discos)it won't happen. Maybe because I'm insecure, I get thinking they will look at my friends, or the other women, not at me, and I'll have to pretend everything is ok. Maybe it may sound ridiculous,but my life is from work to home and vice versa. I've gotta a child, I'm a single mom who lives with my parents. I'm afraid of not finding anyone in my life, there's been a month without a kiss.Tonight I called my exes to feel worse later. It sems that i gave in.
When I am eating in a place during the day because of my work(alone) guys look at me. And when I stand up they stare at me.
But I feel so insecure, thinking that I won't find a mate. I miss being well treated, I miss good sex.I want to believe in prince charming.
I can't masturbate, I feel it isn't the same. When I do it, I feel a stronger desire to have a man. I have men to call and get sex, but they aren't good choices, despite of being handsome(commited, etc.)
sorry for asking, I thing I'm pouring out my insecurity.
And I don;'t know why I'm really afraid of the "night" environment. I want to go out to meet someone, but it seems that women are competing and I guy hardly will commit.Thank you. |
