Clarification/Follow-up by Anonymous on 02/28/04 2:01 pm:
Dear berry, I also concern with my inner beauty. But we are a body, a mind, a soul, everything together.When I hear a praise, I like it at the moment, but when I'm alone, the voices from the past come in my mind as if they were alive.I wernt to psychologists and I couldn't condfess this damage in my self steem to any of them. Two years ago, during a hypnosis section, my psychiatrist fount out it, what I couldn't verbalize. He told me i really needed to be treated. I work a lot and because of my lack of time I can't go there on a regular basis, but I'll return to my treatment because I found out I have to.

Clarification/Follow-up by BerryLover on 02/28/04 2:11 pm:
Anon,
You are so right when you say that we are a body, mind, and soul. I wondered about counseling for you as well. I too sometimes recall things that were done or said in my past and have been known to obsess. I would be curious to know what the counselor told you. I would venture to guess that it was something to help build the self-esteem. I think some of us are more sensitive and emotional than others too, which is great at times but can sometimes be a hindrance to ourselves. Have a great day! Even without seeing you, I believe that you are a beautiful person!

Clarification/Follow-up by Anonymous on 02/28/04 2:20 pm:
He told me I shoud treat myself. He told me that I needed to attend regular sections to improve. And he's one of the best in my state.He's been even in TV shows giving interviews.He told me that most of what I produce of negativity comes from my mind itself. Those people aren't there anymore, t't's just me letting them to continue harming me. But as he knows it isn't easy to put in my mind, I have to be treated. I also take medicines to avoid leading me into the deep depression. Otherwise, I couldn't wake up in the morning.It's not easy.

Clarification/Follow-up by Anonymous on 02/28/04 2:20 pm:
He told me I shoud treat myself. He told me that I needed to attend regular sections to improve. And he's one of the best in my state.He's been even in TV shows giving interviews.He told me that most of what I produce of negativity comes from my mind itself. Those people aren't there anymore, t't's just me letting them to continue harming me. But as he knows it isn't easy to put in my mind, I have to be treated. I also take medicines to avoid leading me into the deep depression. Otherwise, I couldn't wake up in the morning.It's not easy.

Clarification/Follow-up by Anonymous on 02/28/04 2:48 pm:
Berry, I don't have a physical problem which prevents me calling men's attraction. It happens. It was strange what happened to me in my childhood because I heard praises too, and not only from my relatives.Maybe those boys were pissing me off on purpose...I don't know. I hear praises and more praises. Recently, I was wearing a top with Marylin Monroe's face on it, and a colleague with whom I always talk(sure i've never told him anything about this), asked me if I like her. I answered yes and he told me that she's beautiful, and I'm very beautiful too. He wasn't coming onto me because he's really my colleague. When I tell my mother these praises she says"only you don't accept yourself and don't see yourself". Any way, dear Berry I'm trying to improve because I have a daughter and I don't want to show my insecurity to her.

Clarification/Follow-up by Anonymous on 02/28/04 2:48 pm:
Berry, I don't have a physical problem which prevents me calling men's attraction. It happens. It was strange what happened to me in my childhood because I heard praises too, and not only from my relatives.Maybe those boys were pissing me off on purpose...I don't know. I hear praises and more praises. Recently, I was wearing a top with Marylin Monroe's face on it, and a colleague with whom I always talk(sure i've never told him anything about this), asked me if I like her. I answered yes and he told me that she's beautiful, and I'm very beautiful too. He wasn't coming onto me because he's really my colleague. When I tell my mother these praises she says"only you don't accept yourself and don't see yourself". Any way, dear Berry I'm trying to improve because I have a daughter and I don't want to show my insecurity to her.

Clarification/Follow-up by Anonymous on 03/03/04 7:43 am:
Dear ttlady, I know what you mean, thanks for the attention, but it will be difficult as long as I don't live in the U.S.I have a beautiful daughter, she has long blonde hair and incredible green eyes. People say she is beautiful,since now. She says she wants to be just like me when she becomes an adult.I was considered the most beautiful mom in her school and my picture with her was opening the site of the school on the Mom's day. Their classmates come to see me, saying that she has a very beautiful mom. I walk on the streets and the guys turn their necks, send kisses to me from their cars and the younger and popular ones want to come onto me when they see me,but they are too young to me :)) and I see in them those from my teens.That's why it's hard to believe in the woman I am. I rtead about other super models and gorgeous actresses who had the same problem.I don't have any problem in finding sex, but in finding love. Maybe because that little child inside doesn't believe she can have it. Thank you my dear one :)))

Clarification/Follow-up by Anonymous on 03/03/04 7:43 am:
Dear ttlady, I know what you mean, thanks for the attention, but it will be difficult as long as I don't live in the U.S.I have a beautiful daughter, she has long blonde hair and incredible green eyes. People say she is beautiful,since now. She says she wants to be just like me when she becomes an adult.I was considered the most beautiful mom in her school and my picture with her was opening the site of the school on the Mom's day. Their classmates come to see me, saying that she has a very beautiful mom. I walk on the streets and the guys turn their necks, send kisses to me from their cars and the younger and popular ones want to come onto me when they see me,but they are too young to me :)) and I see in them those from my teens.That's why it's hard to believe in the woman I am. I rtead about other super models and gorgeous actresses who had the same problem.I don't have any problem in finding sex, but in finding love. Maybe because that little child inside doesn't believe she can have it. Thank you my dear one :)))

Clarification/Follow-up by Anonymous on 03/03/04 7:43 am:
Dear ttlady, I know what you mean, thanks for the attention, but it will be difficult as long as I don't live in the U.S.I have a beautiful daughter, she has long blonde hair and incredible green eyes. People say she is beautiful,since now. She says she wants to be just like me when she becomes an adult.I was considered the most beautiful mom in her school and my picture with her was opening the site of the school on the Mom's day. Their classmates come to see me, saying that she has a very beautiful mom. I walk on the streets and the guys turn their necks, send kisses to me from their cars and the younger and popular ones want to come onto me when they see me,but they are too young to me :)) and I see in them those from my teens.That's why it's hard to believe in the woman I am. I rtead about other super models and gorgeous actresses who had the same problem.I don't have any problem in finding sex, but in finding love. Maybe because that little child inside doesn't believe she can have it. Thank you my dear one :)))